"I seem to take more steps back than forward these days. I went to the Desert Adventures meeting and sat alone, not speaking to anyone, and really not encouraging anyone to speak to me. I know this is my doing. I'm really getting sick of the closet...I know this sounds counter intuitive, but I think I just need to leave it, to help let me leave some of the worries about being "discovered" behind me.
Something I have to work on in...is making and maintaining friends...I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong (besides above).
Well that's it for now I guess."